Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Falling down and getting back up

So I have made some realizations this week. One I can't stand where I live. I miss my friends and miss my family. I don't want Tom to leave in the next few weeks and staying here all alone is not an option. I need to be around people that love and support me. People than encourage me and even though I sound whinny can empathize with me. I thought that I would be able to just walk away from everything I had in Charlotte but realized that its not that easy. I had an amazing support system, and people that understood me. I feel like my husband has been wonderful to me. He is truly my best friend. I have reached the point in my pregnancy where I cry at the drop of a dime. Even though he jokes and tells me I'm crazy he is nothing but supportive. When I'm not feeling well he is always trying to make me feel better. Even if it just means snuggling with me in bed and holding me tight. I don't know what I did to deserve such an amazing man but I am never letting him go. On another note my puppers have been great too. They are definitely great company when Tom isn't here. I'm on week 14 of my pregnancy. like 500 weeks to go lol. Or so it feels like. I feel a lot better except being tired all the time. It's like I want to sleep forever. I figured out I love eggs today. Gone through a dozen in a week, so I guess eggs are my craving? I learned how to make eggs in a basket and its my favorite ever! And I have been eating a lot of salad lately, its my late night snack so I don't eat super heavy. I don't think I'm hitting my 100oz of water a day but thats a lot!!! I need to try and keep a water bottle on me at all times! Christmas is almost here. So proud of us for getting all the shopping done already! Just have a couple more gifts to wrap and I'm done with that too thank God. Can't wait to go home Friday! Get to see my amazing church family! And get to spend some time with my friends this weekend too!! Its gonna be a busy couple of weeks but a wonderful couple of weeks!!!

Monday, November 29, 2010

Holiday Joys

So i had an amazing time with my sister and her hubby this weekend. We cooked dinner together and she made an amazing feast, which after hours of cooking neither of us felt like eating! Baby is getting a little better to deal with but the nausea has not completely going away yet. Getting kinda nervous. Tom leaves on the 3rd of January for 3 months and I'm gonna have a rough time with it. Usually it takes me a good bit of missing him to be ok but this time I wont even be able to hear his voice. My mom is wants me to stay with her for my bday to not think about him being gone which is super sweet of her but I still think its gonna be hard. I feel bad whining to my friends here about it because some of them have it much harder than I do but my mom has been a good ear to vent to. The baby still doesn't like a lot of foods thus far. Im hoping that it will be better soon cause I cant do this for 6 more months!

Friday, November 12, 2010


So I'm sick and tired of this! I'm sick of being ill. I can't eat without throwing up. Changed my prenatals, still not helping. I want this baby soooooo bad but this is painful. It sucks too because I feel ungrateful. We asked the Lord for this baby and I feel like I'm not seeing it as a miracle like I should. I know women do this all the time but how? How do they go through it with such happiness and joy when I feel like I'm on the borderline of being resentful. My husband has been amazing but he has his physical and mental limits too. So on top of not feeling well I have to deal with the issue that the house doesn't get put together, dinner doesn't always get made, the dogs get taken care of by my husband, and I can't do anything about it. I went to the grocery store the other day and by the time I got home and got everything to the apartment (which isa on the third floor btw) I felt more ill than i did in days! I feel so bad for Tom too. He is trying so hard to be good and take care of everything but of course he is going to have his breaking point too. Hopefully we can have a good weekend. Wednesday is my first Intake appointment. hopefully they can try to dosomething for my sickness. My wonderful pastor Filmore prayed for me this morning. I am so blessed to have such wonderful people around me. hopefully the rest of the day goes better than right now.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010


So my Blueberry hates me. But its ok cause Blueberry is so grounded when it comes out! Today is kinda rough. Woke up tired.... again...... dogs are being a handful.......again. But i still love them. Hoping to get some homework done today and

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

9 weeks

So when they tell you not to jinx yourself, DONT DO IT!! First day of throwing up has been horrible. I really miss my husband today and feel like a bad doggie mommy. I have been completely ignoring my dogs, and my husband, all day. I hope that things get better soon. I haven't been great at work either. I do want this baby but God it is kicking my butt!!! hope Tomorrow will be better.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

FIrst post

So I should start my blog off by telling a little about myself. I'm 26, married to a wonderful man, 2 dogs, baby on the way, originally from Charlotte NC, and an Army Wife at Ft. Bragg, NC. I'm in my 8th week of pregnancy and thought I would get off with no morning sickness but I guess that was a flook. I found out I was pregnant last wed night thurs morning at the E.R. Thinking I had something wrong with me I took a pregnancy test and went in for side cramps. Found out I was 7 1/2 weeks along and had a cyst in my ovary. But other than that Very Very pregnant. It was like 4am so being excited was a chore but nevertheless we were happy. Now my baby wants to be difficult and we are going to have to have a talk about being nice to mommy even in the womb!!! Thank God I have a good support system here of women that have been through this (more than once) and are available to answer my every question. Today I went to work, got sick immediately, came home, hugged the toilet, dog puked, I slept, dog shit in the bedroom, I put him in his crate, and now I'm trying to find something that doesn't make me gag thinking about eating it. My poor husband who wants to be helpful is training to be Special Forces so he has a lot on his plate too and is trying so hard to be helpful. He doesn't get home until 11pm tonight due to a stupid late ruck march!!! poppy!!! So for now my wonderful baby girl Bella (my dog) is lying in bed with mommy and keeping her company while she is feeling poppy. Love my Bella Bear. Time to go find some food yuck..........