Monday, April 7, 2014

A mother knows best...... If only she knew she knows best

So I took Mina to the dr this morning for this damn rash she's had for 4 months. It's been on and off 4 times now. I figured she needed to be potty trained and maybe that was the issue. So I took her in and of course that's what he said. It's just persisten diaper rash blah blah blah. Potty training and naked time at home blah blah blah. Thanks I wasted my morning. I'm always so worried I'm doing the wrong thing and take my kids in looking like an idiot. But we got to have lunch with daddy who unfortunately is on CQ today. I hate these stupid shifts. I should be cleaning, but just too lazy to. Mina is still napping I should prob get her up. What a waste of a day. Hopefully tomorrow tom won't sleep forever and we can spend some time together. I'm gonna take the kids out of the house in the morning and let Tom sleep a bit. I have to run errands anyway and it will be good for the kids to go play. I hate when Tom has CQ because it throws our days off. I also hate being a single mom half the time. It's probably why I suck so bad at being a housewife. 

Soooooo tired!!!!

4/6/2014

So I'm totally exhausted, stayed up wayyyyyyy to late watching WWZ. Btw I am so angry it needs a sequel, but overall a good movie. So this mornings rant is about selfies. I am so over them. Let's take 50000000 of the same pic of ourselves and post them on Facebook. And have you noticed most of the people that are into taking daily selfies and single? Maybe if you weren't so self absorbed you would not be single? Maybe someone could stand you for more than 5 minutes? I don't know why i am even friends with some of the people I am on Facebook. Oh yes I have been on Facebook a couple of times already today. This is a lot harder than I thought it would be. Hopefully I can wean myself off of it. So I got my pots planted last night, I'm hoping this kid naps soon so we can go take a pic!
7:25pm
So today has been rough, my lack of sleep last night has affected this whole day. I am so exhausted and napping with 2 kids awake is like trying to nap during a nuclear strike. I cooked food and did some dishes today so I guess I did something. Other than that I have been on Pinterest, amazon, and Facebook all day. Yes Facebook. The sad part is I can't like or comment on any posts because I want people to think I'm actually doing well. I really want to go to bed and wake up on a different day. Tomorrow I will be out with Tamela and Lorri but that means Tom will be all butt hurt that I won't be home to spend time with him all day. I can tell he is mad at me. We are in foul moods and its nu bueno. I want a do over on this weekend. I want to start over.

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Crazy Day

So YAY Daddy came home yesterday, so naturally we spent the day running errands. Today I got to sleep in thank God. Mina has been in super emotional toddler mode and Tommy is going through something wicked so he is medicated and on his second nap of the day! I love it when hubby is home because I get to cook for real again. No more mac and cheese or frozen chicken nuggets. I made an amazing Caprese salad and Pork tenderloin for lunch. We are going to try to get the kitchen cleaned up today so I can cook dinner lol. Hopefully at some point we can go to Vierdia and get the stuff I need for my herb garden! I am so excited to have fresh herbs on my back porch! I found an amazing Organic store near our house and went shopping this morning. I wish I had found it 2 years ago opposed to 9 months before we leave but you know better late than never. I felt pride today making my kids food though. I am slowly moving away from pre packaged and over processed foods. Today I gave my daughter fresh plain yogurt with fresh cut strawberries in it and she loved it. So no more buying fruit and sugar full yogurts. these are things I should really be doing all the time. I am going to get spinach to put in smoothies for them. This is the way we should all be eating. Sure they are gonna get fast food and frozen nuggets on occasion. But if the major portion of their food is natural and healthy I am ok with the occasional junk foods. SO Facebook has been a lot harder to give up than I thought. The fact that it's not right on my phone is helpful but I was still on it a few times yesterday. Or if I do something (like make an amazing lunch) I want to immediately post a pic. Or vent on my timeline. It is so annoying my life has revolved around a stupid website! Today hopefully Tom and I can dig into the word a bit while the kiddos are napping. I signed up for Parents Night Out for the week after next so we can have some alone time. Him and I need to get back to a place where we are connecting and have some time away from the kids together. Thinking about taking the kiddos on a hike next weekend (God help us all). Tamela and I are suppose to go to Nove on Monday after some lunch so that would be nice! I actually looked up those piggy banks on the Tiffany's website, I paid 17 euro, they sell on Tiffany's for $125!!! I should buy like 5000000000 and sell for like $70 on ebay lol. I am trying to make a list of things to get our friends and family from Italy before moving back. But only for the close people, we can't afford to get EVERYONE a present! I am already getting my plans and thoughts together for moving back. I know its months away but I am already so excited. I miss my family so much and I know they all miss us and especially the kids!!
FF to 11:19PM
So we went to the garden store and my husband was going to flip out. Way too many people and 2 kids that want to run in opposite directions. The garden store comes with an outdoor goat farm so I told him to take the kiddos there to play while I stood in line to pay lol. Disaster Averted!!! The kids had a blast feeding the goats grass. We got lots of videos and pictures and some much needed outdoor family time. And to top it all off I got my stuff for my herb garden. Thank God one of the workers there spoke English so he could help me cause I have never planted anything in my life. We also got mina a couple small plants and the cutest little watering pot to help mommy water the plants. We then went to Pizza King to grab dinner and headed home. Tommy of course was exhausted and went down right after dinner. Mina was a complete drama queen and likes to try to tattle on mommy. We were also trying to talk to Tom's parents the whole time. But even after all that my ADHD ass needed to go plant my herbs and water them. Then proceed to make some detox water I have been dying to try for months. I roped Tom into it so I am guessing we will be taking turns hitting up the john tomorrow. Now to go to the bedroom and watch a zombie flick with my hunny before hitting the sac. So good day equals good night!


Thursday, April 3, 2014

A NEW DAY

OK so OBVIOUSLY it has been quite a while since I have posted. I chose to get my ass off of Facebook today. Not for good but for a good while. I have noticed more and more each day how it overtakes everything in my life. I don't spend nearly enough quality time with my kids, my husband, and God knows the house could use some attention. On top of that I am always stressed. I have been trying to do better in my walk with Jesus but when I have Facebook its like who needs Jesus. I need time to spend for myself and not doing meaningless stalking of other people. One day I will go back to it and use it for its purpose without making it an idol. So so far today I am doing OK. So I want to write out everything I do with my kids, with my family. I want to be able to look back on these days and see how well or bad I did in raising them or spending time with them. I want to keep an online diary. I am going to warn you now. I am an emotional creature. I don't cry much but who needs crying when I can vent 24/7? So there will be ups, and there will be downs. But hopefully I can keep myself sane through the process. I put Facebook down today and so far my daughter is happy. I did finger painting with her. I folded 3 months worth of laundry that piled up on the guest bed, and did some dishes. Who would have thunk it. I can get shit done when I am not sitting in front of Facebook all day. Two weeks ago I went to a Woman's Church Retreat and met this amazing woman named Victoria Robinson. She is an anointed woman of God and gave me hope for raising my children. Everything she said I felt like was almost speaking directly to me. Facebook was also mentioned. So here I am replacing Facebook with something I hope doesn't become just as unhealthy. I mean there is only so much I can write, right? Wow so just an update, my Internet just said a big "f" you to me and would not let any websites load. Only took like 2 hours to fix. Anyway today is one of those up and down days. I thought I was being a good mom at first but I'm exhausted, Tommy has been a pain in my ass and getting into everything and it's the first time I have been mad at him. As I write that I think wow how can anyone be mad at a baby? These are the reasons I need God. I need him to give me patience, to help me bite my tongue when all I want to do is yell stop and lash out at them. Then Mina poops in her panties……..Potty training day 4. maybe its too soon for panties. Maybe naked time at home and pull ups outside? Hey saves me money on diapers right? I have got to say this is soooooooo much better than Facebook already. I can express myself how I want without worrying about what ALL of my friends and family think of me. And make snide comments or whatever. I am free to say whatever it is that comes to mind. Right now I just want some peace and quiet. Tommy is trying again to nap and Mina is playing with her toys. I still have laundry to fold and dishes in the sink but I am beyond exhausted at this point. Maybe there is a nap in store for all of us. On that note…. I will be keeping up with this blog regularly and will see you again soon!!!!

Too long

Ok so I haven't written anything in a while. I guess writing to my husband everyday didn't give me much love to type lol. So I'm currently 26 weeks and 3 days pregnant. Madison is kicking up a storm. Tom got recycled for SUT training but only has to do the last 5 weeks over. He came home 2 Fridays ago and left last Friday again. He got to feel his daughter kick which was amazing to him. Mom has been visiting regularly and going to Dr.'s appts with me. Dad has also been coming and keeping me company. My wonderful pastors wife Sandy is throwing me a baby shower on the 19th. Then mom is throwing me one on May 1st! We got the crib which was super exciting!! Its killing me not to go crazy buying stuff for the baby but I am trying to control myself.

My baby girl

It is amazing to be a mother! I think the blog should end there. But what else can I say about this amazing life that has come into ours. She is perfect! Now I know in a few years I won't be saying that as much when she is driving me crazy but I don't think I have ever loved like this in my life. God has truly blessed us

Sad

So I did really well for almost 4 days. I haven't been feeling so hot today so that could have an effect on how I'm feeling. I miss him so much. It's hard to be in an empty house without my husband coming home. Tomorrow would be our day to sleep in and just lay around all day. I had so much motivation to get stuff done and I feel like it's slipping away from me.